A Letter to Little Lynn
One of the tools I frequently use both personally and professionally is therapeutic letter writing. This blog openly shares some of my writings with little Lynn.
Dear Little Lynn,
I want you to know how much you mean to me. Thank you for everything you are and for all that you continue to teach me.
What If…
What if your beliefs went on to shape you?
What if the decisions you made about yourself became your goosebump-inducing a-ha moments?
What if feeling weird and different was actually one of your greatest strengths?
What if believing you had to work harder because you were a girl shaped your values?
What if your decisions paved an on-purpose path, unfolding to support others in ways beyond anything you could have imagined?
What if the ‘shouty, doubty’ lens was only ever part of the plan?
What if your connection to inner wisdom sparked at the most unexpected times?
What if you knew you’d never feel ready?
What if you trusted that feeling nervous was actually when you connected with your courage?
And what if everything is better with butter is the one belief you get to keep working on? 😉
The Unseen Threads of Childhood
Little did little Lynn know how things that happened to her in her early years (even in utero) would massively impact the rest of her life. Some small things, some not so small.
I use the word ‘thing’, as a descriptive. This could have been a way in which she responded to something. Equally, it could have been a belief or decision she made. All of which would have been typically subconscious whist in a sympathetic nervous state of flight, fight or freeze.
The time she was with her Mum running a bath, who shouted at a spider sitting in the plughole. Little Lynn formed the belief that spiders were dangerous. If Lynn’s Dad had to come and rescue them, spiders were really bad.
The time she was left at school for the first time. Little Lynn decided that she wasn’t needed or loved.
The time she started her period, before anyone else in her class. Little Lynn believed that she was to be ashamed and hide this most natural womanly occurrence.
The time she took on the energy of her grandparents wanting a boy. Little Lynn believed she wasn’t good enough as a girl.
The Subconscious Filing Cabinet
All of these events formed as an ECHO (Energetic Conscious Hologram) which resided in Lynn’s subconscious filing cabinet, energy field, Matrix. Affecting everything she thought, did or said.
Operating at around 95% of our subconscious, continually filtering out threats and danger, the brain is simply trying to do one of its two main jobs, keeping us alive or looking to reproduce.
Which leads beautifully onto how I now feel these powerful thoughts affected my later life and our ability to have a family. Deciding that I wasn’t good enough as a girl, I lived most of my life in masculine energy. Unable to allow or receive. With the ultimate in reception being conception. Feeling ashamed and embarrassed by my periods, I feel this contributed to the masculine energy too.
Becoming pregnant at 43, I experienced the most amazing pregnancy and birth. I am convinced that what was going on a little bit higher than the uterus (my mind!) played a much more significant part in our ability to conceive.
Oh and the spider thing, I tapped that out (with EFT) and now love our 8 legged friends.
Maybe It Was Never the Truth…
Maybe none of these beliefs were ever the truth. Maybe they were just the perceptions of a little girl who made momentary decisions about her worth, her safety, and where she would fit in the world.
Spiders were dangerous. She wasn’t normal. She didn’t belong. She had to work extra hard because she was a girl.
But what if none of that was real? What if life was always meant to be a joyous playground? And what if unravelling those limiting beliefs was the key to stepping into that joy?
How Can ‘What If…’ Help You Today?
Want to try? Write a letter to your younger self. Let the first age or situation that comes to mind guide you.
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So, what next?
This is my favourite bit, because what is anything without action? Simply a thought or an intention, an idea or a dream, an unresolved puzzle.
Grab a piece of paper or notebook.
Allow an age to come to mind. Don't overthink it.
Pause. Take a breath.
Ask yourself what was going on for you at that time.
Consider where you were living and with who.
Were there any new starts or endings?
Give yourself permission to write about everything that comes to mind. Allow don’t force.
If nothing comes, consider what you needed at the time that you can now share with your worldy wisdom.
Repeat this exercise with any thoughts that come to mind.
We feel it, to deal with it, to heal it.
Know that you have done something incredible for YOU.
Has this helped you in any way? I have solutions if you need more help or support with this. Check out my solution focussed offerings including transformation through Energy Psychology and Holistic Coaching. https://www.lynnbutler.me/ or book a complimentary initial chat https://api.leadconnectorhq.com/widget/bookings/millhhouses450d3bnqblbmnl
Until next time, Lynn :)
